November 04, 2002 at 5:24 PM
there needs to be a midol for men.
it's really that simple.
i hate having a boyfriend with such a horrible fxckin temper. just because i'm usually around when he gets pissed doesn't mean he can get a huge attitude with me.
and then he's always sarcastic with me... when i'm obviously sarcastic with him [like today], he can't take it. i tried giving him all my halloween candy since i don't need empty calories at all, and he says:
"no! if i eat candy, i'll throw up!"
which is so far from the truth. and then 10 minutes later he's eating two slices of pizza.
i hate letting people walk all over me all the time, but if i stand up for myself, then i'm "the bitch"
beginning to think i attract hotter-than-hell-tempered guys. mark ruhsam had a temper. andrew does.
maybe my dad's right. maybe i should just let him go. i just don't wanna think about him. good thing the next available day to see him is saturday, and thats if he doesnt go hang out with julian or go to atomic or have any plans that he forgot about before i drive all the way there!
i know i'm probably blowing this whole thing out of proportion.. i mean, i am a girl after all. but i'm so sick and tired or getting in stupid arguments that have nothing to do with anything. i'm not saying it's over. this is just a speed bump.. one of the ones where julian drives over it sideways.
m.t. and brian lamar treated me better than andrew did today.. and that's fxcked up.
i don't wanna be the girlfriend with her little hands in her little lap and agrees with whatever her big boyfriend says. and another thing- i'd like to sit in the passenger seat for once! pick me up at my house! buy me things! you have a job too! let me be the princess.
i'm "the man" in this relationship and i'm sick of it.
if you don't want me to come see you at school, just tell me. don't make me look like a lost little puppy in front of the whole marching band. they already think i'm stupid for coming back to south river in the first place.
just love me. or don't. don't half-ass it.
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to the rest of yas:
thanks for listening to me bitch and complain. i don't enjoy being a whiner... :(
omg omg everwood tonight!