August 15, 2002 at 5:15PM
i hate myself.
i regret ever being mean to him. just wanna go crawl into my bed in a little ball and cry. then sleep. and not eat.
i sound like we broke up, but this is even worse. i don't know if we have! there's no closure. i can't even look at other couples or listen to music. i'm so incredibly scared now because he is a part of me. am feeling un-whole. my heart hurts. and tummy too.
so for all of you who have had real heartbreak.. i now know what you feel.
i'm sorry for crying about this, but it's a big deal to me at least. thanks for listening. and i didn't mean to write this for pity purposes either.
*hugs*