August 14, 2002 at 7:46 PM
*sigh*
ever have a day thats sooo incredibly horrible, but in the end it turns out okay?
today was definetely one of those days. so Joe and MT put my tire back on this morning. that was the good part. we had to go for TWO slurpee runs (ick). flags were outside today a total of 6 hours..which meant i'm now a lobster- no lie.
andrew and i still arent talking. and it's really really stupid. neither of us will say we're sorry. everytime i see his face he looks sad or pissed or all of the above. it just hurts to get close to him- i just freeze up. today we we're walking to our cars..
Joe: we love kerri, since we fixed her tire this morning!
i wasn't gonna even glance at what his expression was. i think i hurt him really bad. or maybe he doesn't give a fxck.
all i know is, i got to my car first, and i said "bye everyone, have fun tonight [stuffing crapitals]" and three out of the four yelled bye. he didnt. so i managed to yell "bye andrew" and he didnt even look back. he just threw his arm back as a sorry excuse for a wave which was more like an arm spasm.
i just stood there. how can something so miniscule as a wave cause me so much sadness? i was floored. i mean, i have no clue whether it's over or not.
joe got to the car and yelled, "go over there and talk to her!" it was crystal that he wasnt going to do so. so i just hopped in my car and turned up mxpx really loud so i couldnt hear them anymore. sped outta there as fast as i possibly could. screeching tires and all.
i just wanted to cry forever. go to sleep and 4:00 and not get up until 6:30 tomorrow morning. i don't wanna eat either. but i will cause mommy is home for texas! (YAY!)
i'm sorry for telling you all this, but if it's any consolation, it's helping.
OH SO THE GOOD PART!
went to the mall. bought the swimsuit i've been eyeing all season @ weathervane for like 50% off. this guy passes me and starts talking.
turns out he's working as a DJ and he gets "points" for people to answer questions and buy magazine subscriptions. if he gets *some-number-of* points, he gets ONE GRAND! and some trip for two weeks in london and somewhere close to DJ.
the best line that came outta his mouth.. "Do you have a boyfriend?" [answered Yes].. "Would you like another one?"
so, the details. he's hott! the name's issac. 18 or older. and knows how to hit on chicks! i mean, it was nice having someone hit on you, even though its for their personal benefit. his friend was doing it too.
so he got me hook-line-and-sinker. i bought a 2 yr subbie to some fashion magazine for $22.. my wallet IS officially empty. he says if he wins the trip, he'll send me a postcard! yay!
i have some more details and stuff, but i don't wanna get into it on a diary that everyone can read. so yeah, later!