April 17, 2002 at 6:49 PM
Sorry I never ever write in this journal.
I think Jenn is right. The trip has put everyone on edge. No one is caught up on sleep yet, and theres all this extra supersensitivity floating around.
I dunno why, but today I've had a major self esteem lowerage. Adrienne told me today that everyone likes me and thinks I'm cute or something. Nah, that CAN'T be.
I am such a horrible horrible girlfriend.
Eileen: I'm so happy for you getting a prom date. Hope you have fun in Utah.
Rachel: Thank you so incredibly much for today. I mean it more than I can say. Sometimes you just need to get some overpriced fatty ice cream and bitch and sing songs REALLY loud. 90 degree weather, sitting in the car w/head on wheel, blaring dixie chicks..this don't add up.
I feel like such a bitch. Seems like every week theres some new "drama" that goes on. It's no wonder HE sometimes wishes that he didn't have a girlfriend because then he wouldn't have to deal with the bad emotional stuff. I dont enjoy creating drama. Girls are hypersensitive, two-faced, overlyemotional, pissy at times, and breakup-phobes. So thats the way it is.
Have you ever been so hurt or sad that you just shut-down? Like you feel so bad that you can't cry?
Here's a little advice for everyone:
When in doubt, cry. Or take a nap. Or get some Maggie Moo's.
Later, gonna do homework and sleep until this horrible horrible day is over. Thanks for listening- Kerri loves you and DRUGS DON'T WORK! (haha Lindsey)